Dear Anak,
Your dad and I has been married for 10 months now and people are getting more persistent to ask when will they see you. Nakakaasar na anak pero dinededma na lang ni mommy. We have our reasons. And that I want you to understand also.
They said, it's better daw to have you when I'm still young para malakas pa ako to watch you grow. I totally understand that idea. Pero anak I don't want to push that when I know your daddy and I are not yet ready. I want you to have everything, including your parents' emotional stability. Here let me detail it out for you -
1. Mom and Dad want to enjoy each others company first. We know for a fact that once you come all our attention will be yours alone. So even if we want to travel, we can't because we cannot take you with us or we cannot leave you alone at home. We will be needing at least 2 years so we can take you with us. So we want sana to enjoy each others' company muna before having you. Hindi naman matagal yun anak, mga 1 to 2 years lang.
2. We are not yet financially ready. Mahirap kumita ng pera lately. Alam mo ba anak hirap nga si mommy and si daddy na bumili ng bahay natin. Right now kasi sa apartment lang tayo nakatira. Of course we can save by living with your lolas, pero we want to be independent so nagsosolo kami. And hindi cheap ang rent and ang utilities. In short, all our savings go straight to the house sana or car. If we decide to have you na, we will save up for a lot of things pa - hospital bills, your baby stuff, milk, diapers, then eventually your education. Ayaw naman namin anak ng basta-basta lang. We want the best for you.
3. Our emotions are not yet set to have you. Please understand that babies are naturally needy. If both me and your dad can say wholeheartedly that we are ready to sacrifice our sleeps then I can say Go to having you. But you see anak mommy cannot say it's fine na e. Mommy is adjusting pa nga to waking up early on Saturdays eh. May work kasi si daddy pag Saturday so I need to attend to his needs. Then I will wash pa our clothes, iron it after then clean the whole house. Alam mo anak when mommy was single, si lola Evelyn gumagawa lahat nyan. Mommy sleeps until lunch on Saturdays. So anak imagine mommy's sacrifice just to be a good wife to daddy. Pero don't get me wrong anak ha? I love your daddy very much and I'm happy doing things for him. It's just that I need time to adjust. That's why I love Sundays. I consider that as my rest day. Parang inday lang. So if we have you na, I will have to give up my rest day also to attend to you. I'm not ready for that now anak. Konting adjust pa muna si mommy ha?
That 3 reasons pa lang mabigat na diba? When you grow up and you'll be given responsibilities na, you will understand. For now, standby ka lang muna ha? Oh well we are not totally avoiding you naman. Not that I am on pills (baba na ang kilay RH Bill loyalists!). If you come now, we will open-arms accept you. Choice lang namin yung wag muna. Basta I do pray that when the time comes na we want you already, please don't let us beg for you ha? Bulungan mo na si Papa Jesus na ibigay ka na nya sa amin ni daddy. I trust Him and I know He will give you to us in His most perfect time.
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Love,
Mommy
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